Posts I posted on my iphone AREN'T COMING OUT !
but still i admit i've not been writing often lately :s
:D GOOD IMAGE STILL NOT SPOILT !
Im a friend ! haha !
lol ok im still very happy bout it.
Im thinking you may feel that im trying to MAKE you know what i feel ?
IM NOT !!
This is just me to you.
Not a Must-Be-Moved Technique or anything.
Yes or no still your choice to make :)
Im just plotting to be sincere here ! LOL
Besides i don't think you'll fall for anything like this ? :)
I somehow know abit of how you'll react.
Not clever, You are just abit similar to someone i know.
Ok the truth is that you have a splitting personality with my ex.
but there's no link to why i chose you.
I just like the way you are :)
YOUR VOICE ! :)
I just just like like like you ! :)
When you said im your friend, IM DELIGHTED !
No longer a stalker !!! :D:D:D
AHHHH I LOVE YOU !! ><
Don't die for all those anime handsome guy !
ME ME ME !!! LOL !
I wished i was sebastian ! SADDENED !

Reflection:
Im really happy despite losing to anime guys ! LOL
Its ok with me !
Infact i plan to buy you a cosplay costume !!
Happy ?
I think its a 50 50, maybe you might not want me to get you anything.
I don't know :s
Anyways Schools starting, JY OK !
Nights girl.
There's a saying that If you dream about a girl, that girl probably went to sleep thinking bout you.
NAH ! lol !

Drifting more and more further apart.
Busy with exams and studies lately.
I don't even think i can have such perseverance to fight a losing war.
What to do ?
Is it even possible to have you ?
I don't even think there's a chance im going to be your GOOD Friend.
Not to say beyond THAT.
I don't know what to do.
I still smile when i look at you.
But its pathetic looking from afar.
I still like you.
But we don't even have a connection in the first place.
I really want all this to miraculously work out.
But i don't think its going to, Depending on the current situation.
Should i show you this ?
Is it too late ?
Or is this childish ?
My image seems to be loss in your eyes.
You laugh at another.
You smile at another.
All these questioning is making me even more worried.
What will there be in the end ?
You are like a star that i look from afar.
You shine so brightly but i'll never get to you.
You overlook the lands and never spots a small figure like me.
Even when the moon is out, you would not see me.
I want to let you see, let you know how much you are wanted.
And be my private star.


Reflections:
I should really start spending more time here contributing !
Contributing towards you.
So that the day comes when you see this, its not just a joke.
It will be something you will be touched over !
Grumbling does help ! LOL
But im not giving up ! :)
RECHARGED !!!!!!!!!!

YOKATAAA !!! Mid year finally over :)
haha did well ? :)
Well i didn't think i did that well...
lol, hmmm sometimes i think you look very free-minded. ENVY....
Although i don't know yet what kinds of problems and troubles you have, I want to help :)
I really want to literally help with my current status :)
AS A FRIEND....
Now im kinda SADDENED, but its quite ok...
I wanna know how you feel ! :)
I even dreamed of being alittle more than friends with you !!!
I only regret not knowing you earlier :s
If i did, the results might have been different..
Maybe it might be good for me or it could be bad.
I don't know, but im still glad i came to know you before i leave this school
Then i would really have no means of meeting you anymore
Ok maybe not NOT ANYMORE but most likely not.
I don't know :)
Maybe if i did know you earlier, i might not have liked you :S
Wow i figured one "KAMBATTE" from you is even better than ANYONE'S !!
Lol thanks alot !!!!
I was VERY VERY DELIGHTED when that message came lol...
And when you drank coffee and couldn't sleep, IM HAPPY YOU REPLIED !!!
But don't drink coffee that late anymore ok !
You are really cute !!!!!
I can't help myself thinking things *PG* lol
If this starts, i won't want it ever to end PERIOD
Oh ya i watched "Backup Plan" yesterday and i felt that LADIES ARE REALLY SUFFERING ALOT UPON GIVING BIRTH !
That movie freaked me out and changed my prospective O.O
I used to like twins, THE MORE THE MERRIER.
Now i like NONE..
Imagine your wife hugging a Pillow to sleep for 9 months.
Tolerance for 9 months.
The cost of living.
The PAIN she'll have to go thru.
The young little devils !
Father: "What have you got there in your hands, son ?"
Son: "POO POO !"
Father: " WHAT THE...Is it a cat's ? Or your's ?"
Son: *SMILES with lots of sand in his mouth*
Totally freaked out lol.
O.O
lol...
HAHA ! anyways im going to sleep now, Nights :)
Hope you'll be moved by my efforts T.T


Reflections:
Well i felt that the spaces between us is getting further again !
Further from my goal...
But i think thats the space i need to give.
So take your time, but also see my effort.
When the time comes. I will let you know everything you want
I will do everything.
So jusy give me some faith ??? :)

Hi once more :)
Im back to post more...
Just finished watching a movie, "Hormones" Really very nice.
Sometimes i wonder if I even know you. It seems like I do know abit.
But i think its the tip of the iceberg.
I really can't hide the fact that i like you, there's nothing wrong.
But, i also want to know what you think of me....
You side of view...
Your side of the story...
Maybe then i would seem to be the one-sided person ?
Or will this even work.
I believe no one likes failures.
I don't too, and i can't give my word that easily that i am that attached to you.
I too have my life, without you i've already been living 17 years now.
But i really hope you are apart of my life.
You are not a must, but a want.
Its just my selfish desire...
I do hope all these works out.
And you'll be mine EVENTUALLY...hope so
But if not, then life has to go on right...
Glad to have a friend then...
Maybe i'll avoid seeing or contacting you again, cause i know it'll hurt.
But who knows ?........
And i want you to know that you look like any other girls, normal.
There's nothing wrong or weird with liking another color, another taste...
AS A FRIEND, i don't think its important. :)
Don't let them say you're weird...ok
I liked you for a particular reason and one only...
Im captured by your voice and the rest just came in approved by me...
Or not for your voice, I might not have even known you...
Im really glad :)
Sometimes you look real serious...
Sometimes just shy ???
Sometimes CUTE....playing around...
i don't know how stalker i m, but...SORRY ! :)
I have had 2 relationships before....
both failed ofcourse...
Im not even certain they are the ones...
But feelings just tells me to go for it...
So now, im done with practice ! LOL joking...
They are the parts and pieces that makes me who i m.
So im not really that sad bout it anymore.


Reflections:
Am i exposing too much ?
A glare from you can make me go crazy...
Not to say a WORD.
i think i've already entirely destroyed my image in your heart.
Whenever you pass by, its always my time embarrassing !
The cool guy image, GONE !
I hope you'll do well for MYE ! :)
Please please get good results !!!! :)
Ok you must be halfway lost in dreamland, Hope to meet you there !
Nights :)

LOL its not 28 weeks later ! its just a month :)
Since i met you and decided on giving my heart to you.
I not going to say things like "Its ok to reject me".
Because i think its not the truth and i don't think you would believe there's such good deals.
So im just going to tell you, im determined to do it.
And i do aim for a YES, like a A in my exams LOL.
It WILL hurt if you don't want it but not my call right ? :)
Mid year exams coming, so you must be busy studying unlike me :s
Im really got to go poly ! Not enitirely but around 20%.
Its because i want to have all the time to think about you...
And not studying back at secondary or ITE :)
So you see how great of a influence you are ! LOL HAHA just kiddin :)
I must say i CAN live without you, but i think its abit like living only on
Oxygen
Food
And water.
Quite a bore right ? thats the closest thing i can relate to...
I want to be your support, some1 who has the rights to atleast save you !
In return for some color into my life and some spices.
I would say i might get addicted to it. :)
FULL OF WORDS @,@ haha
Its the first smiley i got from you ! LOL
Remember remember ???? i doubt so...lol
im really tempted to show you all these now !
But i know speedy work are usually bad results so...
Wait, Patience !!!!
No one in the universe except me knows yet ! HAHA
So when you see this, change your mind ok ? Don't marry Sebastian ! :)
LOL....
Sebby-chan you call it LOL
hehe, stalker's info :)
I know im not sebastian type, the cool, humourous, gentlemen type..
But atleast i know what you like !
Its not ENTIRELY impossible for me to become like that right ? :)
Just don't give me up yet, wait and see.
You might change your mind !
Ok la nights and sleep real tight JEAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHH...
Im never that high when it comes to these kinda things lol.
But you really makes me happy and high !!!!
Sorry, cool guy...cool guy. LOL
Ok la bye :) sleep early ok.
And Jy for your MYE !

Reflections:
I don't think mushy talks are gonna get thru your defences..
So im schemeingly planning another way in LOL
Don't worry its thru your heart and i never want to get out :)
So the plan is : TRUTH...
I believe you are the type that would kill me if i told a lie :x
So im not gonna lie to you.
Its the truth.
Cause i only wan to win you righteously !
And i believe i can do better than "HIM"
Bye !

If I had you:
If you were my man,
I was your woman.
We were in love,
Here's what would happen.
I'd show you things,
You would be so open.
I know I never will.

But if I had you,
All of the things I would do.
Everyday we would start something new,
And I'd put my world around you.
Oh baby, if I had you...

If that girl on your arm,
Wasn't in the picture.
And if that ring,
Wasn't on her finger.
I would move in,
And what I was after?
God know she's a lovely girl.

But if I had you,
All of the things I would do.
Everyday we would start something new,
And I'd put my world around you.
Oh baby, cause if I had you...
All of the things I would do.
Everyday we would start something new,
And I'd put my world around you.
Oh baby, cause if I had you...

Why am I here on the outside,
With all these feelings kept inside.
Why is this never the right time,
Now I'm so confused.

If I had you,
All of the things I would do.
Everyday we be something brand new,
Oh baby, if I had you,
Ohh... had you,
If I had you.


Nice song ? :) look it up.
I think it matches how i feel right now.
Not the "two is better than one" But slightly abit of this LOL
Song language !
Well im glad you won another trophy into your cupboard :)
I had only 1 for sports in my 17 years of life LOL
Im asthmatic :*(
Not that sad haha...
But too bad i didn't go and can't watch your face as you recieve the trophy...
Im not stalker, its just addictive LOL
You will know it when you like someone like i like you :)
Well i got to say, Iphone is TROUBLESOME when it comes to smsing you lol
Sometimes i either cant find your number, got to input myself.
Or it just shows out another time and i mistook it LOL
Cause usually i sms you good night at 1130 to 1200 time :)
Abit too late for you to reply right ? :)
I try earlier tomorrow :)
Sleepy head ! HAHA
People ask how to find topics to talk with the girl you like...
I answered : "Do what they like" :)
lol !
I don't know it works or not cause im currently not that successful too
LOL if i m, then you'll be talking to me already...
Looks like i need more time to think over a new plan.
Now im thinking when to show you this...
And what would your reactions be ?
"HUH NOT EVERYDAY A POST MEH !!!!" SORRY !!!!!!!!
or
"ITS SO DISGUISTING !!!! IM NOT EVEN THAT CLOSE TO YOU YET !!!!"
Omg...........dead.
Pesstimistic kills.
But i don't rule out these outcomes :)


Reflections:
Im going to make this a more exciting thing.
To make me more enthu about writing everyday.
The renewed booster to remind me to write.
This is not enough.
No where close enough when it comes to you.
You have a high place in my heart and to prove it, i got to set a higher standard for it !
You are worth more than half-hearted people ! You deserve better.
I have to be way better to win your heart.
Or else it would mean i could be doing this to every girl.
Im going to prove my worth for you, In stead of just grumbling.
Im not all words, im gonna prove that !
The fire is lighted !!! LET IT GET BIGGER !!!!
But its still my fault for missing out so many days
SORRY !!!
Im afraid you might not even want to care.
Maybe you replied my smses out of sympathy ?
Or maybe you just wanted a quick way out so you said after O's ?
I don't know but that's where faith(im only using it on you) comes in.
Sad case lol
Ok, its time for me to doze off...Nights :) Sleep real tight, i hope i see you in my dreams again !