I was given another tempting option.
But currently, i still cant bear to give up something i want that much.
Im the type of person that rather not have the thing if it's easily lost again.
So that i wont feel the pain of losing it.
So my every move is directed to one very selfish wish.
To have you in my arms someday.
This maybe silly, or even stupid to you.
From what i can conduct from your personality.
But i still want to do it.
You gave me the strength to even try.
I always knew the ending of my relationships.
Its always a stupid excuse to end the relationship with me, Maybe im really that bad.
Or its them.
Either ways PLEASE don't be like them.
I don't even know if im good enough for you, But im trying very hard to keep my status up.
To your level.
I don't think anybody would attract me like you.
I really hope not.
I don't want to hear that tempting choice also because of that.
It takes 2 hands to clap.
Now im just clapping myself, so i don't know what to do.
I seem like a retard.
Anyways tomorrow school start :) HAVE A GOOD TIGHT SLEEP :)
I love you

Reflection:
Im not trying to gain pity or your anything.
By doing this, I admit its to move your heart.
I want to fight for my chance, even if it takes 2 hands to clap, Im going to clap with a single hand till your hand comes.