LOL its not 28 weeks later ! its just a month :)
Since i met you and decided on giving my heart to you.
I not going to say things like "Its ok to reject me".
Because i think its not the truth and i don't think you would believe there's such good deals.
So im just going to tell you, im determined to do it.
And i do aim for a YES, like a A in my exams LOL.
It WILL hurt if you don't want it but not my call right ? :)
Mid year exams coming, so you must be busy studying unlike me :s
Im really got to go poly ! Not enitirely but around 20%.
Its because i want to have all the time to think about you...
And not studying back at secondary or ITE :)
So you see how great of a influence you are ! LOL HAHA just kiddin :)
I must say i CAN live without you, but i think its abit like living only on
Oxygen
Food
And water.
Quite a bore right ? thats the closest thing i can relate to...
I want to be your support, some1 who has the rights to atleast save you !
In return for some color into my life and some spices.
I would say i might get addicted to it. :)
FULL OF WORDS @,@ haha
Its the first smiley i got from you ! LOL
Remember remember ???? i doubt so...lol
im really tempted to show you all these now !
But i know speedy work are usually bad results so...
Wait, Patience !!!!
No one in the universe except me knows yet ! HAHA
So when you see this, change your mind ok ? Don't marry Sebastian ! :)
LOL....
Sebby-chan you call it LOL
hehe, stalker's info :)
I know im not sebastian type, the cool, humourous, gentlemen type..
But atleast i know what you like !
Its not ENTIRELY impossible for me to become like that right ? :)
Just don't give me up yet, wait and see.
You might change your mind !
Ok la nights and sleep real tight JEAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHH...
Im never that high when it comes to these kinda things lol.
But you really makes me happy and high !!!!
Sorry, cool guy...cool guy. LOL
Ok la bye :) sleep early ok.
And Jy for your MYE !

Reflections:
I don't think mushy talks are gonna get thru your defences..
So im schemeingly planning another way in LOL
Don't worry its thru your heart and i never want to get out :)
So the plan is : TRUTH...
I believe you are the type that would kill me if i told a lie :x
So im not gonna lie to you.
Its the truth.
Cause i only wan to win you righteously !
And i believe i can do better than "HIM"
Bye !

If I had you:
If you were my man,
I was your woman.
We were in love,
Here's what would happen.
I'd show you things,
You would be so open.
I know I never will.

But if I had you,
All of the things I would do.
Everyday we would start something new,
And I'd put my world around you.
Oh baby, if I had you...

If that girl on your arm,
Wasn't in the picture.
And if that ring,
Wasn't on her finger.
I would move in,
And what I was after?
God know she's a lovely girl.

But if I had you,
All of the things I would do.
Everyday we would start something new,
And I'd put my world around you.
Oh baby, cause if I had you...
All of the things I would do.
Everyday we would start something new,
And I'd put my world around you.
Oh baby, cause if I had you...

Why am I here on the outside,
With all these feelings kept inside.
Why is this never the right time,
Now I'm so confused.

If I had you,
All of the things I would do.
Everyday we be something brand new,
Oh baby, if I had you,
Ohh... had you,
If I had you.


Nice song ? :) look it up.
I think it matches how i feel right now.
Not the "two is better than one" But slightly abit of this LOL
Song language !
Well im glad you won another trophy into your cupboard :)
I had only 1 for sports in my 17 years of life LOL
Im asthmatic :*(
Not that sad haha...
But too bad i didn't go and can't watch your face as you recieve the trophy...
Im not stalker, its just addictive LOL
You will know it when you like someone like i like you :)
Well i got to say, Iphone is TROUBLESOME when it comes to smsing you lol
Sometimes i either cant find your number, got to input myself.
Or it just shows out another time and i mistook it LOL
Cause usually i sms you good night at 1130 to 1200 time :)
Abit too late for you to reply right ? :)
I try earlier tomorrow :)
Sleepy head ! HAHA
People ask how to find topics to talk with the girl you like...
I answered : "Do what they like" :)
lol !
I don't know it works or not cause im currently not that successful too
LOL if i m, then you'll be talking to me already...
Looks like i need more time to think over a new plan.
Now im thinking when to show you this...
And what would your reactions be ?
"HUH NOT EVERYDAY A POST MEH !!!!" SORRY !!!!!!!!
or
"ITS SO DISGUISTING !!!! IM NOT EVEN THAT CLOSE TO YOU YET !!!!"
Omg...........dead.
Pesstimistic kills.
But i don't rule out these outcomes :)


Reflections:
Im going to make this a more exciting thing.
To make me more enthu about writing everyday.
The renewed booster to remind me to write.
This is not enough.
No where close enough when it comes to you.
You have a high place in my heart and to prove it, i got to set a higher standard for it !
You are worth more than half-hearted people ! You deserve better.
I have to be way better to win your heart.
Or else it would mean i could be doing this to every girl.
Im going to prove my worth for you, In stead of just grumbling.
Im not all words, im gonna prove that !
The fire is lighted !!! LET IT GET BIGGER !!!!
But its still my fault for missing out so many days
SORRY !!!
Im afraid you might not even want to care.
Maybe you replied my smses out of sympathy ?
Or maybe you just wanted a quick way out so you said after O's ?
I don't know but that's where faith(im only using it on you) comes in.
Sad case lol
Ok, its time for me to doze off...Nights :) Sleep real tight, i hope i see you in my dreams again !

Bought my iphone and all i can think of is seeing your reply LOL.
I been not that busy anymore lately, so im gonna blog for you :)
Its really great i can check your facebook acc from anywhere in SG :)
Take alook at the pics, the status...Taking a look how you feel.
I cant live a day in school without sleeping but, somehow my anxiety to see you, kept me awake for the entire day LOL
Im tired @.@
But im not blaming you ok....Phew.
I don't know what to say, But im amazed im still madly in love with you !
Too bad cant hear you sing anymore :s
I really hope you can atleast know this.
Atleast, VERY LEAST know how much i love you.
No payment is fine with me :) atleast i think the time is worth it.
Ok enough with the mushy stuff :) i don't think you would like it.


Reflections:
Im really trying to make an effort...
Even thou its not needed.
its not a must.
Its not a promise.
You might not even like it.
Or accept it.
But...I just want you to know.
I don't really cares what happens afterthat.
Atleast its my motivation now :)
Ok nights :)

It has been more than a month since i started this :)
HAHAHA !
I really hope you could see this now !
Even if you won't tag, atleast look...
But too bad you're not here now lol.
Its early morning now.
There's somethings i want to let you know...
I know you don't like people smoking (Im quitting)
You don't like wishy-washy people right ? Still resolved.
You don't need me. I really do.
Been asking, What makes the best guy a girl can find ?
Girl 100% : Guy 0% ? This ?
or
Girl 70% : Guy 30% ?
or
Girl 50% : Guy 50% ?
OR
Guy 70% : Girls 30% ?
I don't think the last one will work out.
Maybe the 2nd will...
What do you like ? Is what im trying so hard to find out.
You will ask, What do you know about me ? And i won't be prepared to asn.
Seriously I don't know. i need more clues from you...
Please give me some ! :)
I know you like Kuroshitsuji !
I know you like Haruma Miura !
I know you watch Bloody monday !
I know you want Ciel Phantomhive Cosplay costume !
I know your back hurts...
I know you are quite open...
I know you are really a very hard worker...
I know you will get your O level cert...
I know you are really cute when you are having fun !
I know you are a perfect housewife !
I know you like Japanese songs like i do !
I know i am good enough for you if i work towards it
I...know your voice captured me :)
*slapping thoughts off my brain*
I don't have what it takes to think of that yet...
You might not even recognize me !
You might not even Acknowledge me !
But i just want to let you see all this one day.

Reflection:
Something struck me.
Is it L*** or L***
Lust or Love ?
I control and restrict myself to only on the edge of the Love side
You are the one i want to be with now, i don't know tomorrow.
But i want to treasure you the moment NOW.

Im back and trying real hard to get this done daily :s
No time no time, NO EXCUSE lol !
Umika rocks over haruma LOL
purposely did that. But what can you expect ? IM A GUY lol !
Haha.
So ofcourse Umika would seem attractive to me, If haruma did...
I don't know if i really should be guy LOL
You said you really really wanted to go for cosplay right ?
$400 dollar used for your back treatment :(
So.......I was thinking of a surprise hehe
I think you would really like it...But would you accept my gifts ? O.O
If you do, then i think you will love it !
Seems like you are crazy over Ciel Phantomhive right ? :)
Lets see if i can get you the costume :)
I would like to see you in a cute ciel costume HAHA !
Luckily he's more feminine looking lol
Ok atleast now i have a common term with you.
Its a stupid one but atleast it connects me to you.
Otherwise i would just seem like a stalker.
But stalker or not, I don't want to see you in pain.
I don't have the rights to say anything nor protect you, but please take more caution.
Seeing you walk around with you hands feeling your back, it must have hurt alot...
I wished it would go away.
Although i've thoughts of bringing you to the clinic that day at sickbay...
I don't have the status to do it.
I believe you are the type that can don't bother bout me, but its me who likes you.
I don't mind being that one chasing.

Reflections:
I can't make your pain go away.
I can't make you feel any much better.
But i hope to atleast cheer you up.
You must be thinking, what does this guy know bout my pain.
I don't, But i want to...
Oh ya. Im sorry for having thoughts i shouldn't have !
Don't worry its not as far as you think, but its still kinda wrong at the moment LOL.
Nights ok :)

Lol after afew days i missing writing here again.
Been quite busy ! Watch Kidnapper, CLASH OF THE TITANS and.....
haha ! didnt expect to get your response when i talked about Kuroshitsuji LOL
I think i've watched it before but, due to your influence, im watching it again ! :)
haha.
I got to admit Sebastian is quite the gentlemen, and the way you gone crazy over him...
Makes me jealous of him LOL. At first it was like, "ahhh...This show is nice"
Then when you said Sebastian is SEXY..." I wanna be just like him" LOL
You cant blame me for liking what you like. :)
Well atleast you were into that and i got a chance to converse with you !
THANKS AHH...lol
Im being so retard here, but atleast I REALLY FEELS THAT WAY.
Jean Phantomhive ??? LOL...a part of the phantomhives'
*please NOT sebastian's wife !*
well anyways thanks for replying, im going to sleep now
Nights and sweet dreams princess !
Sleep tight :)

Reflections:
I really think im going crazy over you.
Look at all the stupid things i done to get a common interest as you ?
lol its not entirely for you but you started it !
I been thinking do i just like you for looking just like my ex ?
Or being CUTE ?
or being that NICE, KIND student model ?
I really don't know it now...
All i know is, Im going to find out.
Still hoping you'll be mine someday...I believe that's quite far now.